New Engagement/ Wedding Ring

He gave me the new rings at the airport when he arrived.

Wonderful Weekend

My babe came home for a 3 day 2 night weekend. I had a wonderful time. I wish he didn't have to go back.
I kinda felt like I took him away from his family members. I should have only been there for one day or something. Idk.

His little brother (19 yrs. old) really loves him. He respects him so much. He wants to be just like him. I am so proud of him. My fiance is a great role model. He is inspiring his little brother to go the Marines. He brag about how he really respects his brother and how he his so proud to have someone like him to make him push forward and make something of himself.

The reason for his leave was the death of his grandfather. The funeral was on Saturday. It was really sad. My sister and mom came to the family to support. He arrived on time that Friday morning. We went to the movies to see Hang Over 2, AppleBees to eat, and just spent some family time together.

Sorry I didn't take many pictures of this 3 day weekend. I don't know why. I really hate myself for not taking a lot of pictures.

At the Airport waiting for him to catch the plane. 6/26/11

Wedding Postponed

The wedding has been postponed. Luckily, everyone allowed me to changed the date without paying extra. I am so thankful that except one place which sucks. He feels horrible. I have to get on my job and tell people that the date is changed.

9 More Days...

...until the wedding.

&& I get some bad news. He may not be able to come home for the wedding. I don't know what to do. I have paid people. I have gave out so many invitations. I can't believe this. I am so upset. I don't know what to do or which way to turn. I don't know how I am going to tell all of these people. I don't even know how I am going to explain this to my family member. Each time they say something about the wedding my stomach drops because deep down I know different.

I hope God shows up and show out because we have put too much into this for something like this time happen.

#SPEECHLESS

The U.S. Army Ranks

Yellow, Turquoise, & Grey Oh My...

My Bridal Shower
Saturday, June 11, 2011 @ 2:00 PM

The sun was blinding me.

My bridal shower was held at the conference center. The building is really nice. Some people would think that the building wouldn't be nice because of where it is located. I guess that's why people say "You can't always judge a book by its cover". The bridal shower was hosted by my wonderful sister. She ran around none stop like a chicken with her head cut off to make sure that everything was nice for me. I truly appreciate all of her hard work. Thanks sister.

Well most of my guest were running a little late, but I didn't mind that as long as they came. I must admit that I didn't think anyone was going to show up. I got kind of worried. Half of the people I invited didn't come. I can't be angry or anything because there were so many different events that were going on that day. There were about 3 different weddings in my area, funeral (still born), and a 60th birthday dinner. Some of my guest had to work and some felt as if they didn't want to come because they couldn't give me a gift. I still had fun with the hand full of people that was there.

You know how at most showers (baby shower, bridal shower, or birthday party) how they play so many games and take forever to eat? Well at my shower we only played two games. Two Games??? Yes, only two. The two games that were played: Wedding Feud & Wedding "Tissue" Gown. They always wrote on some index cards words of encouragement/advice for me to look back on over the years.

turquoise, yellow, and grey bridal shower

The bridal shower menu was very simple. It wasn't extravagant. The punch was the talk of the shower. It was a hit. They loved the punch so much. I loved it also. I called it Nitra's Strawberry/Pineapple Punch. We added lemons for decoration. Only to give the punch a cute look.

Gifts: I loved all of my gifts. My girls bought me heels. They know me so well. I did get some items for our new home.




All and all the bridal shower was excellent. There were sad moments, happy moments, tears of joy. It was just so wonderful.

Strawberry/Pineapple Punch (delicious) Lemons make it pop.

Bridal Shower Cake, plates, and napkis

Bridal Shower Cake (turquoise and yellow)

The pictures on the wall were already up in the building.

My niece Nekita (turquoise) and my cousin Keionna (black) playing wedding feud.
About to shake hands but Nekita is cheating. 

Making their bridal gowns. =0

Coping with BCT/AIT

How did I cope with him being gone???

Where should I start? Hmm... How about the beginning. :)

Firstly, I didn't want him go into the service at all because of all the dangers. I was so worried and I still am. He took the ASVAB passed and I waited for him to let me know when he had to leave for MEPS and Basic Training. He went to MEPS twice, I think. One of the times they didn't have a job available that he wanted. Well let's fast foward...He told me his date and my heart dropped. It was only 2 weeks away. I didn't cry because I was so speechless. He cried because he wasn't prepared to leave that early. He assumed that he was going to leave in March or May. 

The Day Before He Left for Basic...
His mom had a going away dinner for him at their home. I was sad, but pretended to be happy until I found out something and I was angry. But I didn't let that get in the way of anything. Once most of the crowd started to slim down it all started to hit me. When everyone left us in the living room alone, I remember trying to find something on the TV to watch to keep my mind off of it, but it didn't help. I remember him holding me tight that hold day which was making it worse for me to hide/hold in my tears. He knows me so well. He know when I don't look at him that I'm crying and when he tries to comfort me I get worse. Well luckily one of his friends (who is very silly) needed a ride home. He kind of cheered me up with the jokes, but once he left and it got quiet tears filled up my eyes again. We came back to the house and sat in the car for nearly 15 to 30 minutes.

Once we got back in the house we were alone again. That is when I broke down and just let it all out. I cried like a little child who just got a whooping (you know when you get a whooping and your trying to hold the tears or trying to stop crying and you make that gaspy noise and start to twitch. lol I can't explain it). He couldn't hold in any longer. He cried too. I don't know how we stopped, but we did. It was finally time for me to go home and when I gave him that last hug goodbye I was about to cry, but I caught myself and I had to rush him out the door.  (As I'm typing this I'm beginning to tear up a bit).

How did I cope with him being at basic combat training?
The first weeks I didn't know what I was going to do because I miss talking to him all day and night. It wasn't until the 3rd or 4th week when his mom gave me a bit of hope. She gave me the address to where they were and I quickly took out my laptop and began to type away. I had so many questions.

This semester in school I didn't as well as I hoped I would because my mind wasn't focused on my work. While at school I had some girls that I called my friends and they were great. They kept me laughing and one always checked to make sure that I was okay. As for his friends they didn't change and they were there for me. I don't know why I thought they would act differently because he wasn't around... I didn't fail in school I just got a C in one of my classes which I thought maybe I would have had a B in and I wanted a 3.8 this semester, but I didn't get it. It's okay though.

I wrote my first letter (typed), mailed it off, and waiting anxiously for him to write back. Other things I did was made YouTube videos, blogged, changed up my hair, and spend a lot of time with my family. My family is always there for me anyways. Without them I don't think I could have made it.

Throughout that process I sent 14 letters. My sis sent 2 and my mom sent one.

Almost time for me to see him...
As it got closer to  family day/graduation I got so anxious. I bought so many different outfits. On the way there I didn't move from that spot on the van. When I finally saw him it's like I was stuck in one spot. I couldn't move. He lost so much weight (he wasn't fat, just gained some weight from all the late night snacks/sleep). I was in tears. I was shocked because I didn't cry. I just couldn't wait until everybody was out of the way. It was such a joyous occassion for all of us. I didn't want it to be over. He was so happy to see me. lol. I forgot to mention that he proposed to me. lol (So yea I had 2 months to plan a wedding at a very low budget of $1500)

The day he had to leave for AIT...
We were loading up to prepare to go see him off and as soon as we got on the base he sent me a text message and said that we couldn't see him. I was so hurt. It seemed as if I was the only one that was sad/angry. I really wanted to get that last hug before he left again. I remember trying to hold in the tears. Luckily, everyone near me was restless and sleepy. I let out a few tears and pulled out a Kleenex and quickly wiped them away. I had to think happy thoughts to stop me from crying.

While at AIT...
It is much better because I got to talk to him every single day. The only hard thing about this is thinking some lil girl is going to try to push up on him. Other than that it's cool. It's relaxed.

Well it's almost time for him to come back home. I'm so ready.

If ya'll have any questions please let me know because I am stuck and I am lost for words.

My fiance

I am counting down the days until he return home. No, he is not overseas...He is away at AIT. He will be home soon and I can't wait until he is back.

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